Preach Your Passion

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We’re much more than the noise we make
or the smiles we fake,
futures and pasts and nows
present in a cycle
with a voice
demanding to be heard.

Pick your poison;
preach your passion.

We Drink Because We’re Poets

-Sahm King

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The Top 5 Warlords and Dictators that Inspired Me

Author’s Note – I don’t personally like leaving disclaimers.  They irritate the living hell out of me.  I’m of a mind that a person should be capable of discerning fact from fiction, truth from lies, sarcasm from seriousness, and grains of salt from mountains.  Unfortunately, this is not the case.

Disclaimer – Reading is fundamental.

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Good day, people!

apprehend-thyselves-lord-satan-iii-humor-is-approaching-rapidlyYou know, I was going to write something nice and sweet and fluffy today, but then I remembered what I am: a liberal-communist-progressive-Christian-Muslim-anti-christ-anarchist-socialist-America-hating-mysoginist-baby-killing-racist.

In short, I’m Satan, and Satan don’t play that.

Instead, I’m going to piss all of you off with what you will likely deem the most ignorant, asinine post that you have ever read.  In fact, you probably won’t even make it through the post.  Yes, that is a challenge.  Why?  Because I’m going to tell you about the 5 dictators and / or warlords that have inspired me in the last 30 years of my life.

After you’ve read this and you see me for the evil that I am, please feel free to inform the Department of Homeland Security at +1 202-282-8000 or the Holy Roman Church via the Vatican’s Congregation for the Doctrine of the Faith at cdf@cfaith.va.   Continue reading

We Can Be Friends, but You Need to Know These 5 Things First

*If you expect eloquence, intellectual, insightful, and creative, please read this post instead.  If you do not expect crass and belligerent, excuse me while I relieve myself of my laughter. *BWAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAA*  Relieved.  Carry on.*

I did not begin blogging on WordPress seeking friendship.  Friendship, in my life, is not even a tertiary motivation as friendship tends to lead in the direction of betrayal, so I rarely consider anyone I come into contact with a friend.  That said, the times I use the word friend, I intend the usage to be loose, as in associate, not so familiar as in buddy, pal, homie.

Even so, I must grudgingly admit that some of you I have come to value as actual friends.  It is because I now must consider that friendships are a possible inevitability, whether I like it or not, I must explain a few things about myself.  What are those things, you ask?

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Poem a Day Challenge – Day #015 – Tepores

Tepores

TEPORES © 2013 BY SAHM ATAINE KING. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

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Poem a Day Challenge #005

 From Dust? by Sahm King

Mark him for the devil when he says

that, for all his works

- his blood, his sweat,

and the tears of his maniacal,

though constrained, laughter -

combing o’er the earth

with teeth finer than a

widow’s mourning chamber

never, ever revealed

a single ounce of dust

intent on murdering itself.

So what of man’s origins?

FROM DUST? © 2013 BY SAHM ATAINE KING. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

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Poem a Day Challenge #004: a Senryu

Forgive me my morbidity.  I often like my subject matter a bit macabre.  For your viewing pleasure, a senryu!  And don’t forget to check out the related articles, featuring some pretty awesome poets!

Through the Void by Sahm King

He’d thank you to fall
into a well of despair
until the end dies

© 2013 BY SAHM ATAINE KING. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

We Drink Because We’re Poets! At Least, I do!

National Poetry Month

National Poetry Month (Photo credit: DML East Branch)

People, people, people!

What’s good this evening?  I’ll tell you what’s good!  We Drink Because We’re Poets Facebook community and WordPress blog!

Here’s the deal!  I and Papizilla each clearly have a fondness for poets and poetry!  With that in mind, we created a Facebook page to serve as a community for poets (mostly unknowns, like ourselves).  Supplementing that, we’ve also created a WordPress site by the same name.  This site is intended to help get poets out there to the broader market, deliver some possibly interesting and entertaining news, establish a database of poets, introduce some poetry reviews on books circulating out there in the market from both known and unknown poets, and to put out information on our own endeavors. Continue reading

Bad News: You’ve Been Tagged

Hmmm…  Looks as if I’ve been tagged.  Thank you to Pap at The Ranting Papizilla for that.  After I’m finished, he, and all of you, may regret me posting this :) .  You may also kneel.  If you like.

Very well.  First, here are the rules:

  1. Post these rules.
  2. Post a photo of yourself (if you want to) and/or eleven random facts about yourself.
  3. Answer the questions given to you in the tagger’s post.
  4. Create eleven new questions and tag new people to answer them.
  5. Go to their blog/twitter and let them know they have been tagged.

Now, for your pleasure – or displeasure – here is a picture and 11 random facts about me.  Enjoy!

Sahm Ataine King – Master of the Universe

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A Genesis

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It actualizes in a dearth; eupnea, a convulsion from a point oscillating from the center, irradiation that, in the future, will not be observed by intelligence, spreading out, the genesis of time, a creative whispering in the hollow atrament, borning dust in an effortless pregnancy, dust that socializes and consummates many relationships into one, becoming plasmatic, amalgamating and coalescing into Alphas and Omegas, the delta at three points affecting the change; let there be light – movement, a hole rent in the fabric of the whole, twisting and turning every object within its vicinity; a movement, the act begging the difference between emptiness and naught, a melding of thoughts, and the journey begins for the trillionth trillionth trillionth second, and that is how Gaea is born: from dust, by dust, in dust, of dust, for dust; a collapse, ignition, relatively miniscule specs lending water to her parched face, the stirring of the soup, the bearing of legends that die many times, until the result is a species capable of language, and some few capable of pouring out these words, and one considering the beginning, and how even the movement of the Universe itself meant the budding of affections and itching proclivities, the proverbial cup of tea drank with pearls in mind; a dreamscape culminating in one fact:

Her.

A GENESIS © 2013 BY SAHM ATAINE KING. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

A Little About Me, but Mostly About Her

I don’t like to brag.

I’m lying.  I do like to brag.  I thoroughly enjoy boasting about the accomplishments I have yet to accomplish but will accomplish in the future I have decided to establish, a future in which you and your grandmothers will also boast about my accomplishments whilst at the very same time wishing that you could be as accomplished as I.

Even so, this post is not about me.  It is about someone very special to me, someone that I can honestly say adds volumes to my happiness and value to these emotions I feel.

That someone is my lady, Michelle Blu.  In fact, while I’m not boasting about me, I’m going to boast about her, starting with pointing you to her blog, Life and Love.

This lady did something for me today without my asking.  In fact, she often does things for me without my asking, but I’d like to take the time to point it out, because she really did help a great deal, which prevented me from pushing the Universe Reboot Button.  You should all thank her for that.  One more apocalypse avoided.

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How to Map a 1and1 Subdomain and Hosted Through WordPress to Weebly.com

How to Route a 1and1 Subdomain hosted through WordPress to a Weebly Site

Good day, everyone!

I created a Weebly site last night called The Art of Sahm. Let me tell you, I had a hell of a time trying to get my subdomain pointed to Weebly. The problem was, my domain is purchased through 1and1.com, hosted through WordPress.com, and now I want to throw an external site into the mix by adding a subdomain of Sahmataineking.com and pointing it to my Weebly site.

So, here’s what I learned.

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A God of Death

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iLLusion abouT goD oF deAthby ~dayat12

When you name me king
and I don my crown,
I’ll encourage your tears
and laugh as you drown,
and when you awake
amid darkness and death,
I’ll teach you reality;
there is no rest.

A GOD OF DEATH © 2013 BY SAHM ATAINE KING. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED.

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PRESSED/REBLOG: Papizilla Book Reviews « The Ranting Papizilla

Welcome to the Papizilla Book Review Page. I have already done reviews of books here and they have been well received. Since you, the people enjoy them, and in speaking with Authors finding out how hard it is to get someone to review your work, Sahm King and I decided this would be a good thing to do. The Arkside Of Thought and The Ranting Papizilla in a joint venture? Look out world! :D

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REBLOG: Lady Speak

For instance: a man sees a woman in a turtle neck and says “You look cozy.” We hear, “Wow you look frumpy today!” What he means is, “I would like to be in bed with you making you warm.” See? No one wins.

via Lady Speak.

For the full article, please click the link.  And vote for “Lady Or Not…  Here I Come”, if you like, here:   http://www.circleofmoms.com/top25/Top-25-Funny-Moms-2013?trk=t25_Top-25-Funny-Moms-2013

A How-To for Google+ and Google Authorship

Floating around through the blogosphere, I came upon Papizilla’s post, “A New Way to Contact Me.”   It inspired me to write out the process for something that I struggled with for a few weeks: Google+ and authorship.  Follow along, people, and I will lead you to the Not-So-Holy Land of Milk, Kahlua, and Vodka.  That’s a White Russian, for those of you that don’t know. Continue reading

The Arkside Podcast – For You, the People

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Good day EVERYONE!

Okay, so I’ve been doing some thinking and I’ve decided that the best route to go is “community involvement“; that is, I get you, the viewer, involved in my podcasting endeavor.  It’s in this spirit that I’d like to share my format. Continue reading

28 Shades of Black – A Faerie Tale (But Not Really)

28 Shades of Black by Sahm Ataine King

What do you get when you throw a nymphomaniac with deep abandonment issues that lend to unwarranted boldness, a psychologist, a best friend one foot over the line away from insanity, and an author with no qualms about letting the characters do all the work for him?

You get 28 Shades of Black.

Join Dominick Black as he goes on the one journey he never wished to take; a journey of self discovery, sexual mayhem, and perspective altering danger.

Once you go Black, you won’t go back.

Post 300 – THIS. IS. THE ARKSIDE! Awards and Favorites and Stuff of that Nature…

This is my 300th Post…  A MILESTONE (a personal one, anyway).  So, I wanted to go ahead and present this little bit.  And, since it’s my 300th post, and I’m exhausted, I believe I will be taking a break for the next week.  Don’t hold me to that, though.

Before I get to sharing, I’d like to point out that Felicia Lujan, moderator of My Voyage Through Time and a pretty awesome blogger, has bestowed upon me the “Very Inspiring Blogger Award”. Why the Arkside of Thought? Come close and I will show you:

“The Arkside of Thought for the amazing poetry and thought provoking contemplations.”

Like, WOOOOW… Who knew? I knew. I kid, of course. Felicia, I’d like to thank you very much!  Coming from a blogger of your caliber, this is indeed a compliment.

In accordance with the rules, most of which I intend to break, I’m going to tell you all seven more random things about myself. Prepare yourselves. Seriously. Do it… Do iiiiiit….

1. I once saw EVERYTHING in a blade of grass. This inspired me to think, and to dream. I know what you’re thinking. No, the grass wasn’t Mary Jane, but it could have been. Hot as it was, the highness would have been welcome, I think…

2. I’m not yet 30, but I’m no longer 28… What this means is, I appear to be between a rock and the place I’d like to go…which is back to 28. Something about the sevens.

3. I’m totally awesome. Just ask my lady; she’ll tell you. Seriously…

4. I once fought off a hundred katana wielding Samurai in a small dojo outside of Kyoto, Japan. Admittedly, this all occurred in a video game wherein all I had to do was press the buttons on a controller.

5. I have this fondness for flowers. At times, I think I should have been a botanist. “But, Mr. King, aren’t you supposed to be full of darkness?” *Pours baby powder into open palm, rears back, and slaps the questioner with a full on forward-reverse pimp slap* I hope that answers your question. Pimpin’ is easy so long as you have baby powder.

6. I have many names.

7. Blu…is incredible. Do you know what she does? She adds to my happiness. I know I can barely go a post without saying something about her, but it cannot be helped. If it could, it wouldn’t be. Ella es la diosa de mi cielo, la reina de mi corazon y se amo mucho.

8. I had to throw in an eighth fact just to say that, yes, I can be corny in Espanol. Please forgive my lack of appropriate punctuation. Eight is also my favorite representation of the infinite.

Now, for the part you’ve all been patiently waiting for.

Today, I’ve decided that I’m going to do something a little bit different than my “usual”. Today, I’m going to share some things that I think are pretty damn cool. Some of these things are things my lady has shared with me, helping to expand my horizons. Some of these things are things that I’ve discovered on my own or that have been shared with me by other people. All of these things are pretty damn cool…at least, in my humble opinion.

Music
Blu has introduced me to some awesome artists over the past year or so. One of my favorites is this gentleman named Shad. I mean, as far as hip hop goes, Shad is probably one of the best I’ve ever heard, and that’s saying something with favorites like Mos Def, the Roots, Wu Tang Clan, Talib Kweli, Eminem, Royce da 5’9”, Busta Rhymes…and I’ll stop there, because the list will go on and on and on. One of the most awesome and inspirational songs from Shad is this track called “Keep Shining.” Just watch the video, and you’ll see what I mean.

Shad is only one of the artists she introduced me to. I’d recommend checking some other notables: Foreign Beggars, Soul Khan, Kem, Santigold, Ieyoka, Rin (Sakura, Sakura is an awesome, awesome song), and so many others. I cannot help but envy her taste in music and try to keep up on the rap scene (I know that’s backwards, which is AWESOME).

I’m eclectic by nature, I think. I know that I enjoy a wide range of music genres. From the classical scene, Secret Garden’s “Lotus” is one of my top favorites.

Then there’s “Lux Aeterna”:

And this nifty little track from one of my favorite Anime (I’ll buy your ticket to hell for you if you’re laughing at that) “Bleach.” The track is called “Senna” and it’s pretty raw.

I’ve also been known to make forays into the Rock realm and some of its subgenres. One of my favorite groups is Red. This song, “Take it All Away” is just…well, listen:

I can go on forever (or forever’s closest approximation) with the music, but I’ve way too much to list here. I might do a strictly music blog post one day, but for now, let me show you some of my other favorite things.

Art
I’ve never been the type to focus on the artworks of others. I guess that I’m a bit self-centered in that respect. I value my own work above everyone else’s. I suppose that stands to reason since I’m the one that creates my work, and I create what I love. Even so, there are some things that I’ve seen that I can’t help but to admire.

Three of my favorites are M.C. Escher, Salvador Dali, and H.R. Giger. I tend toward darkness at times (though, on that, Escher may be the odd man out). Darkness and mind-bending fascinates me. I like work that challenges my perception of what’s real and what’s possible; I like work that can frighten me. Following are some of the pieces I’ve seen that touch on what I enjoy. Bear in mind that I’m not an art aficionado; I likes what I likes.  Here are some from Giger, Escher, Modena, Bosch, and Dali.

H.R. Giger

by H.R. Giger

M.C. Escher

Other Worlds by M.C. Escher

Giovanni da Modena

by Giovanni da Modena

Hieronymus Bosch

The Garden of Earthly Delights by Hieronymus Bosch

Salvador Dali

Santiago El Grande by Salvador Dali

This just barely scratches the surface of the range of things that I like. I’d mention them all, but you don’t really want to be here all day, do you? I thought not.

I’d like to take some time to point out some of my favorite pages. I’m not going to go into any details of why any of them are my favorites because I don’t want this post to be that long. Just know that these are some pretty awesome blogs, Facebook pages, and sites. Take a look at whatever you like, and enjoy the ride.

WordPress
MT BLU
Five Reflections
Jay Walking the Moon
Coco J. Ginger Says
Niltsi’s Spirit
lilies, sparrows and grass
5 Degrees of Inspiration
Flights of a Magical Song Bird
Your Daily Dose
Hasty Words
Chester Maynes

Tumblr
Splinters and Milkshake
LLBwwb, Just Call me Lynn :)
The Daily Doodles
Discovery News
Janel Writes Prose
Paints With Words
The Nothing Pitch
The Plot Needs More Bourbon
Joshua Robert Long
Devid Sketchbook
KQED Science
Defenestrations
Headspace in Widescreen
Quantum Maniac

Facebook
Art
Evolution
Elizabeth Pfeffer
Tree Story
MyHaikuProject

Random Sites I like to Frequent
Top Documentary
Canadian Broadcasting Corporation
National Public Radio
This American Life
Mysterious Universe
TED
MITOPENCOURSEWARE
Video Copilot
Shadow Poetry

OOOOOKay… Now that I’ve inundated you with a bunch of pointless stuff, thanks for staying tuned! I hope that you visit some of the links that I’ve posted. I’d like to point out that there’s a whole lot more than this, but, we don’t want to shut WordPress down, do we?

So, that said, I’m going to leave you with my new favorite song: Santigold’s “Disparate Youth”.

don’t look ahead, there’s stormy weather
another roadblock in our way
but if we go, we go together
our hands are tied here if we stay.

oh, we set our dreams to carry us
and if they don’t fly we will run
now we push right past to find out
oh how to win what they have lost

oh ah, oh ah,
we know now we want more
oh ah, oh ah,
our lives worth fighting for
oh ah, oh ah
we know now we want more
oh ah, oh ah
our lives worth fighting for.

so let them say we can’t do better
they have the rules that we can’t break
they want to sit and watch you wither
their legacy’s too hard to take

oh, we set our dreams to carry us
and if they don’t fly we will run
now we push right past to find out
oh how to win what they have lost.

oh ah, oh ah,
we know now we want more
oh ah, oh ah,
our lives worth fighting for
oh ah, oh ah,
we know now we want more
oh ah, oh ah,
our lives worth fighting for

in their heads, edge in their beds
in their eyes it shows
when the beacon breaks, well then you ask and they don’t know
oh tell me that, i turn my back, well the odds all stand beneath me
and they all said, i was mislead
and now the odds all stand beneath me

oh ah, oh ah,
you’re frozen to your core
oh ah, oh ah,
our lives worth fighting for

oh, we set our dreams to carry us
and if they don’t fly we will run
now we push right past to find out
oh how to win what they have lost

oh ah, oh ah,
we know now we want more
oh ah, oh ah,
our lives worth fighting for
oh ah, oh ah,
we know now we want more
oh ah, oh ah,
our lives worth fighting for

A Short List of Amazing Moments

I stole this idea from another blogger.  You should check her WordPress out.  You’ll find her at confessions of an apple junkie

So, I’m going to let you all know some of the most amazing moments that have happened in my life.

  1. Fort Dix, NJ; a hot field outside the chow hall.  Very nearly regretting going to Summer Leadership School for ROTC.  Hating life; dehydrated; tired.  I noticed a single blade of grass and, when I recognized its soul, in a single instant, I understood all there was to understand of the Universe.  I would like to see it all again; that one moment meant eternities.

  2. One day, I learned I was able to write.  It was great because my speaking skills are not so great.  I tend to be vague, which comes off as evasive or misleading.  I’m glad I can write.

  3. I forgave my Mother with all my heart.

  4. I didn’t want to put myself in danger, but the car was smoking, and the woman was shaken up.  Dying would have been worth it; I did a good thing.  I know, though, that some people would have labeled me stupid, but it was a life.  It would have been wrong to ignore her.

  5. There was one night on this island in the Indian Ocean I had been deployed to.  Two hours of crab legs, liquor, and beer.  Good times.

  6. To me, a “Perfect day for sparring” equates to a very, very good day indeed.  It also applies to places.  There is a park I like to frequent in the Spring and Autumn.  One day, the wind sang to me.  I had my journal, my smokes, and a coffee from Starbucks.  My state was absolute tranquility.

  7. My Goddess showed me this video: Ode to the Brain.  It brought tears to my eyes no less than four times.  Yes, I cry.

  8. She laughed.  It’s like music to me.

  9. 13 May 2011.

  10. The day my beloved Michelle told me she loves me.  Best day of my life and not for the words.

Rants From the Arkside: Empires

There is one truth upon which I and Christians may agree; the Apocalypse is coming. There’s no denying that. Where we will fail to agree is on the precise form that Apocalypse will take.

I do not subscribe to the notion that there will be a return of Christ and a conversion of the Jews, nor the establishment of Jerusalem as Jesus’ kingdom on earth. What I do believe, however, is that there will be the establishment of a one world government.

“Mr. King, that is so insane that it shouldn’t even be entertained.”

It is, isn’t? Yet world domination, far from being a fantastic delusion of comic book Super-villians, has been the dream of empires since the homo sapien sapien picked up a rock and learned the benefits of killing his own kind. You don’t believe me? Let me cite the empires that you all should be familiar with from your history lessons in school: Assyria, Babylon, Egypt, Greece, Persia, Rome, Britain, and the United States of America. These are just the Mid-Eastern and Western Empires, and nowhere near all of them. All of them sought world dominance (and most of their cases, world dominance insofar as what was the known world in ancient times) until it became unsustainable.

“But, Mr. King, you’re arguing that governments are actively trying to dominate the world. Isn’t that just a little much?”

I tend to believe that the next logical step in the sociological evolution of civilization will be the centralization of governments. There will be a one world government. The questions are, will it be a government for the people, or by the people? In our case, will it be government controlled by corporate entities, or will it be an actual government that is built to protect the citizens of the world? History shows us that those in positions of power tend to try to snatch as much as they possibly can, even in light of the fact that they are mortal creatures and, in the grand scheme of things, irrelevant where it concerns the nature, and the vastness, of the Universe as a whole. Absolute power corrupts so absolutely that they fail to remember the fact that they are going to eventually die, and so will everything they love; this Universe will die. Why should they squander their time, and the time of those they lord over, making life miserable for people?

My friends, open your eyes. This is the direction we are moving in. You cannot deny how integrated this world is, from our economies, to our cultures, our politics, our food… This is a truth which only those who are comfortable with maintaining their delusion of a happy-go-lucky world that will keep turning forever and ever and ever are willing to ignore. In lieu of this truth, I would like to point out one thing; the motivation, today, is not to globalize the diverse communities of the world for the betterment of the animals (to include the homo sapien sapien) which inhabit this lonely Earth; the motivation is greed. The motivation is the attainment of material wealth of such magnitude that God should shoot himself in the head with a Gamma Ray Burst for how pathetically impoverished He is. The motivation is shit that we cannot take with us when we die and turn to dust.

I imagine emissaries of an advanced civilization from some far off planet visiting Earth and scratching their heads at the lunacy of its inhabitants (or otherwise exterminating us). You see, we consistently fail to recognize the most important of history’s lessons with regard to the empire and globalization; that, when societies and governments are out for themselves and lack regard for the world at large, things tend to fall apart. Had the Persians followed Cyrus’ the Great’s example following his death, and kept following it, it’s possible the world would have been united long ago under one banner. The measure of success of an empire appears to be its longevity, in most cases. That said, all empires have failed, and they have all failed because they made one crucial mistake; they forsook the people. The people will only take shit for so long. Revolutions, such as the Arab Spring, arise because people have a breaking point. To be sure, the governments of the world can crush you at will, but how long can they hold you down before you become a true animal trapped in a corner and start leaping for the throats of your tormentors?

Here’s my point, people; a new world order is coming. There’s no stopping it. That said, a global government is not a bad thing. Cyrus the Great’s empire, even though it took over many nations, was well loved. Why? Because Cyrus allowed people to retain their identities. He did not seek to crush the little man, but to prop him up. His only real condition, looking at it, was tribute to Persia. For all intents and purposes, nations that were subjugated went about business as usual. No, the new world order is not necessarily a bad thing; it’s the motivations behind the course we decide to take to get there.

People, open your eyes, please. Look at what’s happening around you. It’s coming. How?  The enactment of draconian laws (such as the NDAA), the inexorable depletion of our natural resources, and the destabilization of economies, and the privatization of governments.

Ask yourselves this: with all the history we can refer to, why are we still making the same mistakes?

Oh…take a look at this corporation that could very well take over the world whenever it pleases you: Serco… Would you like to know more? /a>, and Serco – The Biggest Company You’ve Never Heard Of. Tell me it ain’t so.

13 April 2012, Entry 02: As I Dream

At the risk of coming off as rife with undue arrogance, I’d say that the strength of my word has been verified multiple times, most especially by she I call my Goddess.  I have many talents, but where I feel is on capitalization of these talents.

I learned, yesterday, that a friend of mine got married.  Needless to say, I was pleased.  I was also envious.  It’s not so much that I wish to be married.  It’s more that I’ve seen people I’ve somewhat grown up with, as well as people I served in the US Air Force with, going forward with their lives.  From a friend signing an $850,000 contract with a major record label, to the friend I spoke with yesterday traveling the US on Church missions and running marathons, I feel as if I’ve been left behind.  It’s not they that makes me feel this way.  It’s Time.

An unfortunate gift I’ve received is near total Self-Awareness.  I say “unfortunate” because, as well as being aware of each strength I possess, I am also aware of every single one of my flaws (those aspects of myself that I believe are flaws, anyhow).  I am aware of each opportunity I allowed to pass me by.  What keeps me going is a very loving girlfriend and the fact that I am in school and currently pursuing my BS; there’s no doubting that I will graduate.  It’s a given, where I’m concerned.

At times, I at in the mirror, and my reflection stares back at me, a quizzical look playing in his eyes, the obvious question spilling from his mind like blood from a fatal wound; “Why are you still standing there?”

Indeed.  I’m at the doorway to my third decade of life, and thus far, I’ve accomplished nothing beyond attainment of my AS.  One thing that has been noted about me my entire life was the remarkable amount of potential I have, especially where it concerns the arts.  Universes truly are born from nothing at all, as I have witnessed and displayed.  I know what my problems are.  I know where my weaknesses lay.  To some extent, I even know how to get beyond.  So what’s holding me back?

The first time I’ve admitted this is today: the fear of failure.  In fact, looking back at all the opportunities I’ve missed, and at why, even now, I feel as if I’m stuck in limbo, it all boils down to that one irrational fear.  I could have finished out my time at the University I was going to prior to this college, but I quit because I was afraid of the implication.  Hell, to some extent, you might even say I was afraid of actually succeeding.  If I succeeded, and far exceeded people’s expectations, I’d be setting myself up for an eventual fall.  For me, that fall would come harder than it would for others because of my habit of going far beyond what people would normally expect.

What to do now?

We always know the answers.

Place one foot in front of the other.  Move.

For her part, my lady is a blessing of which even she does not yet understand.  I can see the future.  I know I’ll be just fine.

Ark

The Arkside of Eating Out

I love to eat out.

“Who doesn’t?” you ask.

My friend, that is a very good question.  Who doesn’t, indeed.

Excepting those plagued by anorexia and bulimia, I’d hazard a guess that most people enjoy eating as well as eating out.  They enjoy eating for any number of reasons; the taste, the texture, the apparent value, because they have to survive, and for pleasure.

Pleasure.  This is why I love to eat out.

“What’s your meal of choice, Mr. King?”

I’m glad you asked.  My favorite meal is a meal that cannot be digested, only enjoyed.  When I think of this particular meal, I begin to salivate like a dog with his nose aimed at the odorous aroma of raw beef. I must ask in advance that you forgive me my analogy; it surely is not intended to reduce the value of this regalement or the virtues of those who provide it.

My favorite meal is the appetizer served at the gates of paradise where the hungry man awaits his reception into felicity personified.  My favorite meal is the genitalia of the companions of man.  In short, I am quite fond of orally fomenting the flames of woman’s passion and rendering the services of the tongue in which I much prefer to speak.  I love eating out.

Some of you may wonder why I opted to write a blog about this.  As I have no earthly idea why, all I can do is welcome you, again, to the Arkside.

I’m neither a “Casanova” nor a “Don Juan” by any stretch of the imagination.  I’m a nice guy, at times, and oft times shy and awkward (wherein lay my charm).  Since my first sexual experience, however (and despite that first sexual experience not being anything worthy of boasting), I’ve always been interested in the pleasure of women (some more than others, but all the same).  For me, it is something of an art, and while I’m not the “player” type, I feel that I am somewhat of a Leonardo of cunnilingus.  I’ve always been a creator, of sorts; my possible…er…cockiness is derived from the fact that I’ve always been demonstrably decent (at the very least) in any art form in which I’ve engaged.  So too is it the case with the art of cunnilingus.

The creation of pleasure is something that the man must partake in with all due seriousness.  It doesn’t do to simply have sex and be fulfilled for your part; a man must be concerned with the carnal well being of his partner.

I’ve learned, after many experiences, that if one is to maintain his standing with his partner, one must also be willing to please his partner.  For we males, we often fail to think of pleasure the same as our female counterparts, likely because of our natural single-mindedness.  Most of us men who engage in sexual activities are concerned with a singular goal; to “bust a nut off”.  With many relationships, this line of thinking will inevitably lend to the obstacles of proceeding into a tranquil future with any woman who chooses to spend the rest of their lives with us.  Sex is conducive to stability, and one of the most important aspects of sex, in my humble opinion, is the satisfaction of the woman.  I do not discount the satisfaction of the man; it’s easier for us, in general, to be satisfied, just as it’s easier for us to relieve ourselves in public restrooms in a timely manner.  Women simply have higher hurdles they must jump over to achieve the same things we do.  I believe that, as men, the very least we can do is consider how we please our partners with the seriousness that many of us engage in the viewing of Sunday Night Football (which is a very, very, very serious engagement, as evidenced by the billions the NFL rakes in yearly).

Do not misconstrue what I am saying, though; there are always lines that must be respected on both sides.  There are always compromises that partners must inevitably make.  If we cannot, we must ultimately conclude that there is no sense in remaining partners.  It is appropriate, as well, to adopt a philosophy/rule such as “Do unto others that others may do unto you” (the best thing I learned from the Holy Bible, besides how promiscuous King Solomon seemed).

Sexual communication, to me, is as important as any other type of communication which may occur with an any consensual adult relationship.  It is so important that the survival of your relationship truly does depend upon it.  This is a thing I have finally come to understand, fully, especially with the help of the most wonderful woman I’ve ever had the pleasure, and honour, of calling my partner.

Men, go out of your way to please your ladies.  One of the best things you can probably do, from what I’ve observed and experienced over the years, is to become masters of your tongue and experts with your fingers.  Sometimes, penetration isn’t enough; foreplay often makes the difference between a bad sexual experience and a good one (that is, if you know what the hell you’re doing).

I love eating out with a passion.

Rants from the Arkside: What the F*** is Wrong with My Country?

I once told my girlfriend that, before her, I never experienced my emotions with any significant strength; that is, unless those emotions were rage, fear, and melancholy.  I have felt those emotions intensely; where it concerned those feelings, I was a world that the God of the Jews, Christians, and Muslims (the God of Abraham/Ibrahim) created, and those emotions were the Flood.  They drowned me every single time.  They were familiar to me.  With my girlfriend came a feeling I could only describe as divine.  Since her arrival into my life from out of my chimeras, I have experienced a wide array of emotions, to include those that call compassion to the fore and demand I pay heed to what is happening to my world.  I am saying she unlocked me surely as if I was a door and she was the key, and I understood something about myself; I care.  I care more than I’d like to admit, at times.  Even so, and despite my being a 6’5″, average to well built black male with really nothing left in this world to fear, I am comfortable with my tears.

It may be a consequence of missing my girlfriend; the fact that, this week, work stole her away from me may be playing upon my heart strings, but the last two days, I’ve been on the verge of tears.  Two days ago, it was from a joy pure as nature that has not witnessed the presence of Man.  Last night, however, it was rage, fear, and melancholy.

Why?

UNESCO.

More accurately, what the United States of America did to UNESCO.

“But…what in the blue hell is UNESCO, Mr. Sahm Ataine King?”

Come close, and I will tell you…

UNESCO, the United Nations Education, Scientific, and Cultural Organization, is a body dedicated to “Building Peace in the minds of men and women”.  Their mission statement is as follows:

UNESCO’s mission is to contribute to the building of peace, the eradication of poverty, sustainable development and intercultural dialogue through education, the sciences, culture, communication and information. The Organization focuses, in particular, on two global priorities:

Africa

Gender equality

(UNESCO full text “About Us”: UNESCO).

By the looks of what I’ve seen thus far, UNESCO is an organization dedicated to the betterment of peoples who ultimately need aide due to circumstances beyond their control.  UNESCO, being an organization created by the United Nations, subsequently receives funding from UN member states.  They are, in short, on a mission of global peace and renewal.

I first heard of UNESCO on an episode of “The Daily Show with Jon Stewart”.  Jon Stewart hosted a two part exegesis by correspondent John Oliver about the US’ decision to cut funding to UNESCO.  This episode aired on Comedy Central on the 15th of March, 2012.  You can view the piece at either The Daily Show or here at TDS via Hulu – Part 1; TDS via Hulu – Part 2.  The law that allowed them to do this is a 20 year old law entitled Limitation on Contributions to the United Nations and Affiliated Organizations: Public Law 103-236.

I was floored when I saw this piece.  I will tell you a truth, here and now, a truth that may disturb your sensibilities.  There have been times that I have felt that my government has let us down.  Today, despite my efforts to rationalize my feelings and make sense of what the US intended by creating this law, I must say that I am truly ashamed of my country; not of the people (not all of you, anyway), but of my government.  I’m ashamed to be represented by such a myopic body of lawmakers, and I am hurt, deeply.  This cannot be the United States of America.  This cannot be the country of my birth, the golden city on the hill, the land of the free and the home of the brave.  This cannot be the greatest country that ever existed in the history of mankind.  What the fuck is wrong with my country?  We’re the good guys?  America…  Seriously?

We often say that we would like a peaceful resolution to the conflict between Israel and Palestine (a conflict, I might add, we helped to create).  Here, they have the key to making that peace, and we-because of a law that we all know our legislative and executive branches can overturn with a simple vote-deny funding to UNESCO on the grounds that Palestine, a country we have basically ensnared in a vicious tangle of thorny vines, was allowed entry into UNESCO, and thus, a move one step closer to their recognition as a legitimate state, and very likely peace with Israel.  What’s our motive?  To force them to deal with Israel directly, a country that doesn’t want to deal with them because it would mean having to make some concessions and giving back the lands that were taken from Palestine by force, taken from a people that didn’t even do anything to anyone to deserve it?  Is it something else that we’re missing?  Do we really want a peace?

I could understand if the US cut off funding because we have our own economic issues to solve.  I would not like that, but I could understand it.  I could understand that we cut off funding to any organization that supported Palestine if they were simply terrorists (and not defending themselves as they have been doing, which they have the right to do).  What I can’t understand is that, here is a clear path to peace, and we block it.  On top of it, there is an African country called Gabon that stepped up to the plate in America’s absence.  They have much less money than America, and yet, they contributed despite their own poverty.

Apparently, this occurred last year, sometime.  It was reported in the Huffington Post on 31 October 2011 in Palestine Statehood Bid: U.S. Cuts Off UNESCO Funding After Palestine Vote.

Good news: it’s been reported, recently as February, that the State Department would like to continue helping to fund UNESCO: State still making the case for UNESCO funding.  Perhaps they understand.  Perhaps they feel that, in light of the problems that we have in the Middle East, we should be pleased to assist a country like Palestine with taken steps towards an actual peace with Israel.  We should be hoping for it, and pushing for it.

Palestine is a woman that America, the UK, and Israel raped, and when she sought the help necessary to move past it, we raped her again.  When she tried to defend herself, and struck out in the anger that must naturally come after one has been defiled a time too many (and may I say, once was already one too many times); when she struck back because nobody would hear the cries born of her abysmal hurt and perpetual torment, Israel raped her again, then Israel chained her to the walls and dared her to speak without being spoken to.  She did speak, and they cut out her tongue.  The worst thing is, looking at it religiously, she may as well be Israel’s sister.  They raped their own sister.

This is not to say that Palestine is without her share of wrongdoing; her hands are wet with blood, too.  Though I understand the anger, and the reaction to the oppression, there is always a better way to proceed into a peace, ways wherein the killing of innocent children is not necessary (on both sides).  Force does beget force, unfortunately, and as I stated in a previous blog, Rants from the Arkside – Lessons from “What Would you Do?” and Internet Arguments, there always comes a time when one has to take action, and to stand up and fight.  They did.  And now, they’re trying to do things the right way; seeking entrance into the United Nations.

This is not to say that America always does wrong (though, there is a reason much of the world has been seeing America in a much different light than they did before March 2002, and why Americans themselves are starting to wake up out of the dream to real life and smell the bullshit).  We have at least one government organization fighting for them.  This is a wrong that America has within its purview to correct.  It will be my hope, until then, that she does the right thing, in the end.

We’re better than this, America.